34th Day - Obstacles.....

managed to get from Ana's
help of dealing with the system
anyway, worries just arouse
when i saw my darling's miss call
it's kinda freaked me out when you
told me about the incident and
im really really worry about you



thank god that you're ok
i was hoping either to
see you online or even
get a sms or even a short call
from you to ease my worries



today shall say that i will have
not much time for the usual office
entertainments and just because
the system that im dealing right now
kinda freaked me out as it's already
entering the second week of my
internship and it's still not even 20%



at least i get the hang off how to
write the syntax and also the logic
and seems that today onwards i've
been really serious on try and error
of all my codings and syntax and
few last hours of the day emily
kinda lend me a helping hand



anyway, im thinking what's wrong
with the office recently, seems
to be so quiet but it's not quiet
seems to be noisy but it's not
all the time that it's noisy
im thinking whether the colleagues
around are changing or im the one
being busy with work and didn't even
bother to care about my surroundings



God, I'll just hope that everything
will carry on well till the end
nothing will arouse my worries
and also hope that God will enlighten
me at some parts that my confidence
will not be beaten down so easily

people around changes due to circumstances
let people around change in their act and words
environment changes due to situations
let different environment suites my experience
time always flies whenever we're freaking busy
let 24 hours pass through beneficently with work
sad and loneliness were not the best word to describe
let loneliness disappear away with the evening rain drops

changes? environment? work? loneliness?
i will not choose any of the above
but just to choose to be myself
always to be the confident ToMoKo.....