Xpress Post.....

i guess readers will be thinking
this post will have something
related to the real express postage
what i meant to be was that
i will be just dropping by here
a few minutes to just update my post
apologizing if i made readers the effort
of dropping by here to read this new post


as usual the boring Tuesdays
of FOOP and Vb.NET in the lab
VB.NET was quite "okay" today
lots of theory stuff to learn
reports' marks were given back
i kinda not statisfied with it
because due to the "act smart person"
made us kinda hate the person more


stayed at college till almost 1700 hours
went back home and had a short nap
for just about 1 hour or less than that
after showered then drove downtown
headed towards the destination - Boulevard Hotel




the last day of June 2009.....
fetched my dad's customer from Bandung, Indonesia
he kinda brought his wife and 4 kids along (3G, 1B)
had to spend 2 cars to fetch the total of them
as there were the total of 8 people including ourselves
dad's car followed me behind as he's not familiar
with the Mid Valley area and the exits back to PJ
dinner at New Paris, Sec 19 which ended at 2250 hours
then gave the lift back to Boulevard Hotel again
kinda used the underground exit from Boulevard Hotel
heading towards Old Klang Road in order to prevent
myself caught in the long queue at Bangsar red lights


kinda pathetic... kinda exhausted... kinda speechless
im totally lost in FOOP assignment
just hope the very best to complete it
may God lead my group members and i
to complete the whole FOOP assignment !!!


signing off...

just ONE INCH away.....

the students' rumination on Monday
followed by the serenity of classes
made me felt the laziness and boredom
for classes and continue with work


PM class was kinda chaotic
Chef Zam had this program shooting
which occupied the space of P1
made a lesson for PM class just canceled like that


lunch time was crowded at You Yee
as a normal situation on Monday
where Choy Kee is not opened
squeezed us with a table of
Chris, JHong, Michy, JLing & i


OS lessons ended since last week
the 5% quiz marks added into assignment
TE2 class was canceled for some reason
lab E was kinda crowded with the blacks


gave a lift to both friends back to TI
headed back home to get my stuff
in the end headed to yen's house
away from home for a "break" tonight


a little one lane road heading to BU
gravels scattered along both sides
Honda City... crashed... destroyed...
almost... one inch away... involved...


once again in rejoice i wana thank God
He heard my prayers to keep me safe driving
My dear(V), i had promised you since then that
i will never let my emotions affect my driving


now im just at this "unordinary" special place
updating a post and enjoy the surrounding sounds
can i just not think of other things and
stick and focus on my FOOP assignments ???



i will share the comfort with you
i will hate with you
i will down with you
i will emo with you
i will cry with you
have a good sleep and forget everything !!!

the smile that locks my heart
has ended with disappointment and sadness
for me to stop caring
about "you".....

可不可以愛我 & 我听见有人叫你宝贝

可不可以愛我 - 盧學叡

為什麼如此的 安靜
為什麼明明想 靠近
卻還在 遲疑
努力的我 保持鎮定　
努力 開拓話題
最後 卻潰不成軍


為什麼如此的 美麗
深刻的烙在 心裡
最溫柔的 酷刑
每一天 無法不想你
連 閉上眼睛　
怎麼 都是你


你可不可以 愛我　
可不可以 想我
雖然我 對自己
沒有一點的 把握


別害怕 我難過　
告訴我你 真實的感受
至少忐忑能 告一段落


你可不可以 愛我　
可不可以 看我
反正 看或不看
我依然 失魂落魄
成全 不是美德　
拒絕也不是 一種罪過
你能給 我
快樂還是 寂寞


想念 燃烧个不停
我 快置身灰烬
你是我的 呼吸

我听见有人叫你宝贝 - 林建辉

你问我为什么不再给你安慰
在寒风中漫步有家不回
好几天不见面也无所谓


你问我为什么把你的信退回
又把照片撕碎毫不后悔
你问我为了什么开始喝酒
而且每次都喝醉


不要说我做得不对
不要说你永远不会
因为我在无意间听见有人叫你宝贝


不要说这是个误会
请不要在我面前流泪
因为我明明听见有人叫你宝贝
你让他叫你 宝贝

Boring Saturday.....

im just back from another yam cha session
still feeling so exhausted and so lazy


it has been kinda ordinary Saturday
been awakened by Janice's phone call
in the early morning about 0830 hours
kinda reluctant to wake up as
i just wish i could have good sleep


woke up at almost 1400 hours
skipped breakfast and lunch
continued to work on the assignments
im glad that im done with OS
waiting for ika's part of PM
kinda 2 down 2 more to go


at about 2000 hours yen
rang me up for yam cha session
i kinda refused to go out
cos don't wana trouble yen to travel
from Kota Damansara to my place
kinda hard to stopped her from coming
she kinda came all the way to fetch me
yam cha session was at KD's Station One




something kinda shocked most of us
who had the lift on our way back from yen
she started her car engine from Station One
the fuel needle was already at "E"
and also the red light lighted up
it's kinda brave for her to drive
from KD till the nearby petrol station
which is located near my house


was wondering is it the faith that
always there will be something "special"
that happened if i go yam cha at Station One
going to head for my bedtime soon
Good Night, peeps !!!

im now totally in the end of the route of despair, disappointment
and sadness for me to give up and to stop caring about "you" .....

You Are Not Alone - Michael Jackson

another day has gone
i'm still all alone
how could this be
you're not here with me
you never said goodbye
someone tell me why
did you have to go
and leave my world so cold


everyday i sit and ask myself
how did love slip away
something whispers in my ear and says
that you are not alone
for i am here with you
though you're far away
i am here to stay


but you are not alone
for i am here with you
though we're far apart
you're always in my heart
but you are not alone


just the other night
i thought i heard you cry
asking me to come
and hold you in my arms
i can hear your prayers
your burdens i will bear
but first i need your hand
then forever can begin


everyday i sit and ask myself
how did love slip away
something whispers in my ear and says
that you are not alone
for i am here with you
though you're far away
i am here to stay


for you are not alone
for i am here with you
though we're far apart
you're always in my heart
for you are not alone


whisper three words and i'll come runnin
and girl you know that i'll be there
i'll be there


you are not alone
for i am here with you
though you're far away
i am here to stay
for you are not alone
for i am here with you
though we're far apart
you're always in my heart


for you are not alone
for i am here with you
though you're far away
i am here to stay


for you are not alone
for i am here with you
though we're far apart
you're always in my heart


for you are not alone...

was kinda shocked to hear the death of Michael Jackson through the radio this morning..... i kinda wondered, is it the time that God has to take his life away..... few months ago, a famous female Taiwanese singer - A-Sang had just also past away like that..... is that the route that God wanted all these famous singers' life to be.....


i decided to post up the lyrics of this song "You Are Not Alone" by Michael Jackson is because this was the first song that made me knew more about this famous rock singer..... i kinda remembered at that time i was still a totally "noob" in English songs..... i kinda took so long to just know the title and the artist of a English song..... it was totally a kinda touching song and it really suited the time when my foster brother kinda left for Singapore for further studies..... it was this song has encouraged me and kinda told me that i am not alone no matter how far my brother did went away.....


through this post, i just kinda wana salute this most widely beloved entertainer and profoundly influential singer in his journey of the entertainment world..... he is one troubadour to be said to reflect the passion and creativity in his era..... all the fans out there, pay the last respect and mourn for this brilliant rock singer !!!

Rest In Peace, Michael Jackson !!!

(August 29, 1958 - June 25, 2009)

Way 2 Go, Ronins !!!

another good news to be published among
the KDU Ronin's dodgeball members
you guys really did a great job
Congratulations, once again !!!


7 hours ago......
KDU's Ronins (2) vs Binary Bombers (1)


Here are some of the captures :
Ahnaf & Benjamin's gayness Ahnaf & Benjamin falling backwards ??? KDU's Ronins' Member in the match the other Ronins' members giving their support the KDU dodgeball cheerleaders giving their support


At about 21:50 hours
the whole team players decided
to have their dinner aka supper
at Old Coffee Place


the Ronins' members kinda sat together
in the combination of 4-5 tables
the other side of the round table
was kokyew, jiahong, ika and i


Here are some captures again :
Kok Yew trying to stay away from Ika's capture

Ika, enjoy saving her photo captures


To view more captures,
log onto the following website
that the captures were just updated :

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Trust vs Friendship

TO M, S & J :

gossips and rumors seemed to be "normal" in a campus or even in public... Have "you" all ever wondered what is the feeling of talking behind people's back ??? Especially talking behind he or she who does not understands other languages... It is totally hurting when he or she knows it through all the gossips… In my opinion, i don't think that a third party of a best buddy should interfere… What is the reason that "you" have to share the gossips with a foreigner buddy who knew nothing and did not interfere anything in the first place ???

everything seems to be fine and working smoothly at first… why must the appearance of all those stupid questions and feelings making he or she just totally cannot get rid of himself or herself… it is totally sickening if those stupid questions were repeated at all times… just get rid of "yourself" and live with your own life if "you" kinda rejected him or her… worse of all have "you all" ever consider about the meaning of friendship ??? what is the meaning if friends among just gossip like nobody's business ???

TO K :

what is the meaning of team work in all the progress of an assignment ??? have "you" ever wondered how the first of all "you" choose your team mates ??? "you" know "you" can be classified to be the selfish and lazy ones to crack your mind with your team members in the group… "you" had the experience of solo finishing all the tasks and stuff, now "your" friend working alone in the research without the help of "you", and "you" just sucked up and pissed off the anger on "your" mates just like that ??? then what is the purpose and what is the meaning of working in a group with "you" ???

To YiJia :

no matter how bad the situation is, you have to be back yourself... Don't ever care whatever people says about you !!! Just be back yourself, and live with your own life !!! Be Strong, cheer up !!!

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the time is now passing rapidly

pre-registration will be on in 10 hours time

im kinda now totally having he uncertainties

of whether to graduate in March or August 2010

i just realized i had the choice

to graduate in March 2010

im really so confused

and im having lots of doubt now

what should i do ???

Great Job, KDU's Ronins !!!

as usual monday was kinda dull
after OS class immediately headed back home
put away all my stuff and headed back to college
followed JH's car to Cineleisure Damansara


while at about 17:40 hours
the crew members were setting up the whole
dodgeball location which includes the court
the sound system and video cameras


there was a communication failure
between Bro WJ and MingSheng
which ended up him to be at The Curve
ika and i accompanied Bro WJ at The Curve
for a few seconds or a few minutes
while waiting for his dad to pick him up


KDU dodgeball team, The Ronins
completed the league just about 6 hours ago
at 19:50 hours, Cineleisure Damansara
it is the Mad Campus Dodgeball League 09

teams that compete in the league were
Ronins (KDU), Hyenas (Taylor), Boltz (KBU),
Mitans (MIT) and 3 teams of Barbaria (Segi)

anyway, proud to say that
KDU's The Ronins won the match
in the whole league
but the league will prolong till September


im kinda lazy to post the photo captures here
for more photo capture details
please log onto :

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一笑而过 - 那英

不要 把脸藏在月光背后 有谁在意我们的生活
坐在安静角落 该为这一刻找个解脱
不要你眼里伪装的内疚 该是自己幸福的时候
静静地想一想 谁会追求刻意的温柔


你伤害了我 还一笑而过
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
眼泪流过 回忆是多余的
只怪自己 爱你所有的错


你伤害了我 还一笑而过
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
眼泪流过 回忆是多余的
刻骨铭心 就这样被你一笑而过


心碎千百遍 任谁也无法承担
想安慰自己没有语言


你伤害了我 还一笑而过
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
眼泪流过 回忆是多余的
只怪自己 爱你所有的错


你伤害了我 还一笑而过
你爱的贪婪我爱的懦弱
眼泪流过 回忆是多余的
刻骨铭心 就这样被你一笑而过

sneezing..... H1N1 ???

one week by one week follows the
tick tock sound of the clock
passes by so rapidly


unfortunately woke up early morning
at about 0700 something
started sneezing all the way to college
really don't know whether to blame myself
or to blame to unextimated weather
making me had no mood for anything
and also makes me just feel so sick
many friends around me were sick too
get well soon, people !!!


after Techno went back to get my car
immediately headed back to college
to meet up Dinie to lead him the way
to Pizza Hut, Taman Tun Dr Ismail
started our meal at about almost 1230 hours
mates that came : ika, hong, JH, michy,
JL, dinie, kenny......


kinda waited for alex, SH and MS
for about 30 minutes to join us
MS, congrates of getting the free tickets
of the premier screening of Transformers 2


left Pizza Hut at 1430 to the badminton court
the ones who came for badminton :
hong, ika, mac, michy, kenny, seahai, novianto
kinda satisfied that i could sweat and release stress
i was kinda still sneezing non-stop... sigh...
and also one of my racket's string broke horizontally
next basketball between hong, ika, MS & kenny
hong, MS & i kinda challenged the 3 little kids
that normally played as usual at court infront of my house


ScOrE :
hong, MS & i vs 3 little kids (11 - 9)


mamak session at FS mamak after basketball
nothing much around the whole week
that is all i can update and review
assignments stress is still on
every one of us were busy on it
good luck to everybody who faces assignments !!!



p/s : i just hope that i could stop sneezing and continue to work on the assignments !!! sigh.....

Torn Apart.....

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERNED :


*** MYSELF
flipping through the memories in KDU
known new friends and new classmates
known new people and new characters
which was intended to have been built
long time ago in my own personalities


*** PEOPLE
knew people who were happy and jovial
knew people who were egotist and stubborn
knew people who were energetic and cheerful
knew people who were emotic and explossive
knew people who were hardworking and nerdy


*** FAITH
the route ahead for everyone is not easy
sometimes it just faithed to be as it is
what can we voice up when God decides
every now and then that we have to carry on
everything that it is supposed to be


*** PUBLIC
sometimes a break is needed for everyone
i kinda just threw my caring part away years ago
but now im back to care about the important ones
im back to care for other people for now and then
what i needed is just to control my soft hearted


*** TEAM WORK
to me team work in new environment is a failure
but no matter how bad the communication is
do trust the group members which were chosen
work hard to catch up on every progression
have the combination of the spirit of a team


*** CARING
i disagree with the statement "caring is sharing"
it all happened because i love keeping my feelings
i just hope that the care would never exist in my life
even just hope that this word would never exist in dictionary
soft hearted of myself appears during this point of the life


*** EMOTION
trying to keep the mind not to have a hint of emotion
just hope the "ones" among us can find the stability
somewhere that we can have the massive explosion on it
dealing with our own stamina of emotion is tough
just get through those feelings and never keep it in heart

does anything arouse in your mind, when you see the sunset image above ? as far for me, when sunset appears in my mind, i just hope that i can finish all my assignments as soon as possible... this is something that i cannot expect how as i can finish all of it... something that i have used to it long time ago, just hoping the lecturers will not come out with the questions in the final part of the semesters... but in the end, it has been a nightmare that all assignments' due date came into a crash...


the whole college environment was kinda quiet... most degree students were having their break as just for few weeks, some were just after their exams, some... i kinda hardly describe the whole environment... it recently most of the seniors were working hard on their DPRJ... anyway, just hope they can finish on time and all the best to every one of them...

omg !!! after the whole VB.NET assignment, im really kinda hanging around recently... kinda leaving aside my assignments even how pathetic and how in a rush that i have to complete it... the questions were also hardly for me to describe... i cannot say that it is hard, and i cannot even say it is easy... the questions just needed understanding... anyway, i have to say it is just into the assignment busy status month.... everybody will be busy from now and then... good luck to all my mates !!!

Solitude.....

FAMILY
the issues of give and take
the cries of arguments and quarrels
the compromising of each members
when can i have the excuse to stay away???


FRIENDS
the issues of obsessiveness and care
the incidents of understandings
the resistance of caring each buddy
when can i just care about myself once ???


LOVE
the issues of satisfaction and presence
the deplore of pain and disappointment
the black hole of a person's deprivation
when can i just glide through the "breeze" of life???


STUDIES
the issues of grades and low marks
the truth of a finish line
the emotionally pain of scoring subjects
when can i have the time to catch up???

life sometimes is just so happening..... as life goes on the difficulties of mustering on my emotions and physical strength just kinda pulled me away tremendously from my slumber every night..... the song "When You're Gone" by Avril Lavigne thwarted by one of the Hitz.FM DJ which indeed utterly affected my feelings and thoughts every minute..... the incidents that happened around me recently were just to be compared to the truculent, rough sea..... what can i comment about it ???


as the thorough discussion among family members carries on..... i just realized that nobody suppose to be blamed to start the quarrels..... there is no reason for someone to point fingers over unsatisfactory because the manual of life is within our frivolous palms..... all that happened would just be the probabilities part of life.....


To the elders of my family members,
" love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres. love never fails... "
- Corinthians 13:6 -

i'll just be hoping that the cries of quarrels could step to an end as soon as possible...

Giving Up...

it is easy to bask in joy
not easy to feel the pain
it is to bewilder in mysteries
not easy to probe on me


looked and saw myself
im cared enough to push away
held and asked myself
im acknowledge of the validity




my mind is confused
my heart is true for you
my thoughts are messy
my heart is stuck on you


it is causing me pain
im about to let it go
it is breaking my heart
im about to give up


Giving Up !!!

When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne

i always needed time on my own
i never thought i'd need you there when i cry
and the days feel like years when i'm alone
and the bed where you lie is made up on your side

when you walk away i count the steps that you take
do you see how much i need you right now

when you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too

when you're gone
the words i need to hear to always get me through
the day and make it ok
i miss you

i've never felt this way before
everything that i do reminds me of you
and the clothes you left they lie on the floor
and they smell just like you i love the things that you do

when you walk away i count the steps that you take
do you see how much i need you right now

and when you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too

when you're gone
the words i need to hear to always get me through
the day and make it ok
i miss you

we were made for each other
out here forever
i know we were

and all i ever wanted was for you to know
everything i'd do i'd give my heart and soul
i can hardly breathe i need to feel you here with me

when you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too

and when you're gone
the words i need to hear to always get me through
the day and make it ok
i miss you

Relaxation Ahead...

im not going to predict my weekend ahead
not thinking it would be a enjoyable one
not thinking it would be a relaxed one
it is totally unpredictable.....


friday is always the best day to cool down
not thinking of screwing on assignments
not thinking of doing any revisions
it is totally relaxation.....


it was another relaxed friday
not thinking about the math of CM
not thinking about the report of VB.NET
it is totally mind peace.....




today was a little too relaxed
not thinking of the on going workloads
not thinking of the boring lecture
it is totally freedom.....


afternoon badminton sessiong was canceled
not thinking to apologize for canceling
not planning to have another game ahead
it is totally laziness.....


evening basketball was a sport to enjoy
not thinking of personal problems
not thinking of staying away
it is totally tired.....


NOTE : a special thanks to hong and bro WJ
for the basketball & yamcha session.....

Turning Point of Life

when blood gushing out from my skin
when tears rolling down from my eyes
made me just to move on to bright side
made me just stop thinking about the pain
no matter it was meant to be hurting
no matter it was meant to be depressing
will i let myself be hurt over someone
will i let myself be hurt over something
which sadness were caused in the past
which pain were caused in the past - physically


life can be short as it stated
life can be wonders of happenings
life should be with care and sympathy
life should be with happy and enjoyment
being almost a looser in life like me
being ironic of how pessimist like me
stayed in the imaginary of hurting myself
stayed in the imaginary of ending myself
not to realized how tough it will hit me
not to realize how hard it is in mere future - ironic


memories of the childhood days
memories of the past in early days
my childhood days never came to a close
my childhood memories were haunting me
this is the reason of leaving the public
this is the reason of being alone in public
even i do prefer to be leaving everyone
even i do prefer to be alone anytime
always will remain in future
forever will remain always - emotions


imaginary pain craving through my mind
rolling tears sitting behind my eyeballs
the hell of my mid is like no one else
the hell of my mid is not particularly horrid
the life to experience all the misery
the life to experience malfunction mental
would it be a point of passion for anything
would it be a point of living for anything
i believe in faith and miracle of life
i believe the turning point of life - satisfaction


memories that crossed by me
experience that shared by me
people will just learn step by step
people will not be satisfy with life
keeping up to have self-trust
keeping up to be strong !!!


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something that i have just realized recently
no matter how close a friendship is
there is a boundary or circumstances
that made a person's helping hand to be failure
just trying my best of what i can do
and also helped out my friends in all ways


at last im done with my VB.Net assignment (what a big relieved !!!)
Project Management looking forward for discussions
Techno's business plan on the way for tasks allocation
FOOP looking forward for the questions


Good Night or Good Morning to the day ahead !!!