The Reason of Me Suffering from Insomnia

- i -

I beg the both of you...
Please settle all the problems slowly and calmly...
Can't you all just sit down and have a good discussion...
You can't prevent not talking to her, can you???
You can't ignore him, can you???
Due to frustration she increased her volume while talking to you...
Which made you said that you're preventing conversation with her...
Due to anger he said out something...
Which made you kept his words in the heart for the whole week...
That's stupid okay, both of you are not 3 year old kids anymore!!!
When both of you were in this situation...
Have both of you realised that who is the one who suffers???
I'm the one who's been on the middle of the fence...
I can't make a conclusion on who will I side with...
that's totally unfair as both of you are my "closest relative"

~ 多伤不管 多痛不管 多苦不管 我什么都不管 多伤不管 多痛不管 ~

（我不管 - 吴克群）

- ii -

I beg you...
Exam is almost around the corner...
Please settle down and concentrate in your studies...
Although I know sometimes you were tensed up or even sometimes you are down...
You need something to make you happy and make you feel better...
Till today I couldn't hide he 50% of my feelings anymore...
I really care about you and worry for you...
Honestly, I knew that you sincerely care and worry about me...
Honestly, I realised that sometimes I need a break while chatting with you...
Honestly, I've been busy with my assignments in these 4 days...
I knew that I can't keep any secrets away from you...
In these 4 days I do feel down at times...
But I've made the choice of not telling you...
Because I don't want to increase your burdens...
Because I don't want you to worry...
Because I was told that you were facing some difficulties...
I knew that I'm not allowed to apologise...
But I still want to say sorry!!! sorry!!! sorry!!!

"he’s always on my mind
from the time i wake up,
till i close my eyes
he's everywhere i go
he's all i know

and though he's so far away,
it just keeps getting stronger
everyday
and even now he's gone
i'm still holding on
so tell me, where do i start
'cause it's breakin' my heart
don't wanna let him go

maybe my love will
come back someday
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts
will find a way
but only heaven knows
and all i can do
is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

my friends keep telling me
that if you really love him,
you've gotta set him free
and if he returns in time
i'll know he's mine
but tell me, where do i start
'cause it's breakin' my heart
don't wanna let him go

maybe my love will
come back someday
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts
will find a way
but only heaven knows
and all i can do
is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

why i live in despair
'cause wide awake or dreamin'
i know he's never there
and all the time i act so brave,
i'm shakin' inside
why does it hurt me so?

maybe my love will
come back someday
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts
will find a way
but only heaven knows
and all i can do
is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
heaven knows
heaven knows ~

(Heaven Knows - 陈伟联)

- iii -

I beg you...
I have the remaining one week to finish you off...
I don't want to crack my head on you anymore...
Although I knew that...
To understand you even better...
I will need to find more books and websites to refer...
I'm almost totally giving up on you...
I'm almost prepared to just simply finish you off...
And hand it up to Ms Yennee on the 23rd July...
I can't face all these circumstances...
I’m already totally a different person…
I can’t hold on to my determination character anymore…
But I can’t stay away from my own requirement…
But I can’t stay away from myself of being “perfect”…
What I want is a webpage…
Which meets the marking target of Ms Yennee…
What I want is a webpage…
Which applies the stuff that I’ve learned in this semester…
What I want is a webpage…
Which is applicable to be my future home page…

- iv -

I beg you...
I hope you don't appear in front of me for some time...
I need the space to recover from disappointment and sadness...
I knew that we were just “best friends”…
I knew that our feeling was there but none of us admitted it…
I knew that you were there but not for me...
Then...
I realised that God didn't sent you for me...
I realised that it's just all a dream...
I realised that you were the first person who I fall in love with...
I realised that your love was not for me
I realised that all these while it's just a one way love...
I realised that I'm not the suitable one for you...
But now…
I’m already not disappointed…
I’m already not sad…
I’m already prepared to face it…
I sincerely bless that both of you will have a good future…
I just hope that you will show your sincere to her…
I just hope that you will give her the happiness…
I just hope that both of you will have a happy ending…
But I know you won't have the chance anymore...
Rest in peace, my friend!!!

“说 说你为什麼 为什麼要走 说你为何要分手
别拖 求你别软弱 求你说出口 分手的理由
但你却 拖 拖 拖 拖到什麼时候
如果要走却又为何停留
请你别 拖 拖 拖 大声的说出口
请你要痛就痛给我个快活
如果说你要走 我不会留 我不去管以后
然后我们说清楚 一句话就够
如果说你要走 我不会留 我不去管以后
多麼痛 多麼的难过
别越爱越难过
然后连话都不说 继续沉默
连朋友都没的作 为了什麼
然后跟别人说你其实还是爱我
就算了吧 坏人我来作”

（越爱越难过 - 吴克群）

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