It may sound unbelievable…
But I’m now writing this post
at the ward’s nurse counter…
2 hours 50 minutes ago…
A patient had just passed away due to failure of lung’s function
Even if with the help of VAP Sigh… This is life…
May YOU rest in peace,Amen!!!
Have u thought about your family
Have u thought about your friends
Before stepping into an action ???
Life is so fragile Life is just so precious It is given by God and
HE can also take it from you anytime
This is human’s fate…
It’s already August…
I really couldn’t imagine that I'm posting
30 minutes after midnight
The mood of July is just disappointed, desperate and gloomy
for me and most of my friends
Especially KY, FY, M, J, A, V, T & N…
I’ve been thinking and asking myself
Whether things and events have changed
Or I’m the problem of all changes…
What’s wrong with me ??? What’s going on with me ???
All these while I can control my feelings, my emotion
But why not now ??? I totally can’t do it…
I have totally lost my self-confidence…
All because of tiredness, sadness ???
Definitely “no” !!!
I can’t continue to be like that…
I have tried not to think negatively
I have tried to control all my bad feelings and emotions
I have tried not to blame myself to cause that accident
I have tried to face the truth and the fact of the death
I have overcome the sadness of the death I have struggled to finish my assignments
I have studied thoroughly for my finals
I guess the answer is just only one
I’m still preventing myself to face all the true facts…
There’s an event going on this Saturday
Yes, you didn’t see it wrongly…
It’s on Saturday, 02 August 2008!!! This event titled “Big.Fat.Life you have?” Look at the poster below and you’ll understand…
WK, I don’t mean to lie to you…
I don’t think I will join this event with you
I will be totally lost even if I can know your friends
Not only with your friends but also with other people
Honestly I still don’t know you well
And I cannot accept you so suddenly in this moment
Give me some time
I guess for now we can only just be friends…
I wish you all the best in achieving your happiness and your love
I’m really sorry !!!
Time really flies
Semester one is over…
August will be a brand new semester for me
New subjects ( total of 6 subjects)
And will be meeting new lecturers and mates
I’m looking forward to it
Hope it won’t be a disappointed semester again…
All lecturers and college or university students out there, I have no offense to title my post with this title today. It all happened because a lecturer has made most of us went mad. So, with no offense to say that my title has a meaning behind it…
IWT’s assignment was handed in yesterday, one burden’s gone!!! ** thumbs up ** It has been a month of hard work to design a free online resources web site for kids aged between 7-12 years old. Anyway, it’s been nice of Ms. Yenneeto set the user requirement to primary school kids…
I realised the improvement in me of learning lots of new XML and CSScodes. While furthermore with some other applications. Although it’s been tired to try out with the codes, setting the alignments, putting the right colours and wordings, I’ve never regretted to work on it as it is really fun!!! (Ask Raymond, he will give you the same answer too!!! Am I right, Raymond???)
This is one of the example page of my web page.
Raymond, I really want to thank you!!! Thanks for the effort to try out the codes to help me and also to help yourself. Kekeke… ** I wana advertise something here, try to find out the difference of the applications at Raymond’s Blog, he has made lots of changes through using the XML codes **
Anyway, whoever is interested in learning HTML, XHTML or even CSS, don’t hesitate anymore. Here is a good website to learn these three applications today, feel free to log onto W3Schools Online Web Tutorial to learn it yourself online…
Here comes my main topic of my post today… Thinking back the days in APIIT College, how I enjoy Ms. Melissa’s tutorial session. This dedicated and responsible lecturer has been famous and also the idol among most of the students in APIIT College. She could be the role model of anyone out there!!!
While not to say that I’m comparing KDU College’s lecturer with her... What I wana blog about is that we had these so irresponsible programming lecturer in KDU!!! I think her case is even worse thanMr. Muniandy's case. Thank God that she’d resigned…
Here is what happened. The FOP assignment is almost to due tomorrow, most of us are struggling with it. Guess what??? This FOP lecturer stopped her lesson last Monday (she resigned on Monday) and said that she’s resigning. You know what, she left us without guiding us for the finals and also our assignment. What we did today was, we rang her up today in order to confirmed some things. We switched the phone to loudspeaker so that all of us can hear. I couldn’t believe that the one who answers the phone (who is herself) told Michelle that it wasn’t her. The worse part of it is she simply gave us another contact number which the number leads to a Malay girl…
We really couldn’t figure out why did she do this to us… If she really don’t want to entertain us, just give us another reason... Just don’t send a email to us and inform us that if we have any problem, do email to her gmail's email account and not the previous KDU's email account... What we're mad of is the part that she simply gave us an unknown’s phone number… Anyway, honestly to say that I’ve never seen such an irresponsible lecturer in my life… Even if it’s either in primary or secondary school, you will also never get to find this type of teachers.
This is what the lecturer sent to us!!!
So, an advice here… Do survey more about the colleges and universities before you enroll in them!!!
don’t say goodbye 我还不想离开 don’t say goodbye 能不能从头再来 don’t say goodbye 这一切开始的太快 让我静静一个在这发呆
don’t say goodbye 我还不想离开 don’t say goodbye 能不能从头再来 don’t say goodbye 请不要忘记我的爱 让我静静一个在这发呆 不想离开
看著你哭的时候特别奇怪 想给的安慰总是说不出来 为何这爱总是拼凑不起来 现在的你为何笑的那麼愉快 因为你我可以永远在这等待 因为你我不会再悲哀 say goodbye ~ say goodbye ~
don’t say goodbye 我还不想离开 don’t say goodbye 能不能从头再来 don’t say goodbye 这一切开始的太快 让我静静一个在这发呆
don’t say goodbye 我还不想离开 don’t say goodbye 能不能从头再来 don’t say goodbye 请不要忘记我的爱 让我静静一个在这发呆 不想离开”
To My "Best Friend"... I can't let you go and needed you by my side Do you still remember the special meaning of these two songs Do you still remember the days that we listened it together Do you still remember me telling you that I needed you in my life These are my memories for now...
I can't let you go and needed you by my side Do you know that you were my first love Do you know that without you it is hard for me to survive Do you know that all these while I am sacrificing in an one way love These are my memories for now...
I can't let you go and needed you by my side We knew that there is the chance of being together We knew that the love is there but it disappears whenever we quarrel We knew that we're supposed to tell each other about our own feelings These are my memories for now...
I can't let you go and needed you by my side I will remember your smile and your voice in my dreams I will remember the times that we were close in my dreams I will remember the touch that was for me in my dreams These are my memories for now...
I can't let you go and needed you by my side You're the one to wipe away my tears when I am down You're the one to be through them all with me when I am happy You're the one to hug me from behind and make me rise when I am disappointed These are my memories for now...
I can't let you go and needed you by my side I'm glad that you've been honest of telling me you fall in love with "X" I'm disappointed with the way you treated me since last year I'm disappointed that I didn't express my true feelings on the day you left for Osaka These are my moemories for now...
I can't let you go and needed you by my side I'm shocked when I received your sister's call after the day you had the car crash I'm blamming myself when I received the news that you're gone after a car crash I'm disappointed that I'm the last one to know the entire news in the midnight These are my memories for now...
I can't let you go and needed you by my side I hope that you can forgive me for my weakness I hope that you can hear my words above the sky I hope that you can still feel these static above the sky These are my memories for now...
I LOVE YOU, my "best friend" !!! I MISS YOU IN MY HEART, my "best friend" !!! REST IN PEACE, my "best friend" !!!
I beg the both of you... Please settle all the problems slowly and calmly... Can't you all just sit down and have a good discussion... You can't prevent not talking to her, can you??? You can't ignore him, can you??? Due to frustration she increased her volume while talking to you... Which made yousaid that you're preventing conversation with her... Due to anger he said out something... Which made you kept his words in the heart for the whole week... That's stupid okay, both of you are not 3 year old kids anymore!!! When both of you were in this situation... Have both of you realised that who is the one who suffers??? I'm the one who's been on the middle of the fence... I can't make a conclusion on who will I side with... that's totally unfair as both of you are my "closest relative"
~ 多伤不管多痛不管多苦不管我什么都不管多伤不管多痛不管 ~
（我不管 - 吴克群）
- ii -
I beg you... Exam is almost around the corner... Please settle down and concentrate in your studies... Although I know sometimes you were tensed up or even sometimes you are down... You need something to make you happy and make you feel better... Till today I couldn't hide he 50% of my feelings anymore... I really care about you and worry for you... Honestly, I knew that you sincerely care and worry about me... Honestly, I realised that sometimes I need a break while chatting with you... Honestly, I've been busy with my assignments in these 4 days... I knew that I can't keep any secrets away from you... In these 4 days I do feel down at times... But I've made the choice of not telling you... Because I don't want to increase your burdens... Because I don't want you to worry... Because I was told that you were facing some difficulties... I knew that I'm not allowed to apologise... But I still want to say sorry!!! sorry!!! sorry!!!
"he’s always on my mind
from the time i wake up,
till i close my eyes
he's everywhere i go
he's all i know
and though he's so far away,
it just keeps getting stronger
everyday
and even now he's gone
i'm still holding on
so tell me, where do i start
'cause it's breakin' my heart
don't wanna let him go
maybe my love will
come back someday
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts
will find a way
but only heaven knows
and all i can do
is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
my friends keep telling me
that if you really love him,
you've gotta set him free
and if he returns in time
i'll know he's mine
but tell me, where do i start
'cause it's breakin' my heart
don't wanna let him go
maybe my love will
come back someday
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts
will find a way
but only heaven knows
and all i can do
is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
why i live in despair
'cause wide awake or dreamin'
i know he's never there
and all the time i act so brave,
i'm shakin' inside
why does it hurt me so?
maybe my love will
come back someday
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts
will find a way
but only heaven knows
and all i can do
is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
heaven knows
heaven knows ~
(Heaven Knows - 陈伟联)
- iii -
I beg you... I have the remaining one week to finish you off... I don't want to crack my head on you anymore... Although I knew that... To understand you even better... I will need to find more books and websites to refer... I'm almost totally giving up on you... I'm almost prepared to just simply finish you off... And hand it up to Ms Yennee on the 23rd July... I can't face all these circumstances... I’m already totally a different person… I can’t hold on to my determination character anymore… But I can’t stay away from my own requirement… But I can’t stay away from myself of being “perfect”… What I want is a webpage… Which meets the marking target of Ms Yennee… What I want is a webpage… Which applies the stuff that I’ve learned in this semester… What I want is a webpage… Which is applicable to be my future home page…
- iv - I beg you... I hope you don't appear in front of me for some time... I need the space to recover from disappointment and sadness... I knew that we were just “best friends”… I knew that our feeling was there but none of us admitted it… I knew that you were there but not for me... Then... I realised that God didn't sent you for me... I realised that it's just all a dream... I realised that you were the first person who I fall in love with... I realised that your love was not for me I realised that all these while it's just a one way love... I realised that I'm not the suitable one for you... But now… I’m already not disappointed… I’m already not sad… I’m already prepared to face it… I sincerely bless that both of you will have a good future… I just hope that you will show your sincere to her… I just hope that you will give her the happiness… I just hope that both of you will have a happy ending…
But I know you won't have the chance anymore...
Rest in peace, my friend!!!
