sneezing..... H1N1 ???

one week by one week follows the
tick tock sound of the clock
passes by so rapidly


unfortunately woke up early morning
at about 0700 something
started sneezing all the way to college
really don't know whether to blame myself
or to blame to unextimated weather
making me had no mood for anything
and also makes me just feel so sick
many friends around me were sick too
get well soon, people !!!


after Techno went back to get my car
immediately headed back to college
to meet up Dinie to lead him the way
to Pizza Hut, Taman Tun Dr Ismail
started our meal at about almost 1230 hours
mates that came : ika, hong, JH, michy,
JL, dinie, kenny......


kinda waited for alex, SH and MS
for about 30 minutes to join us
MS, congrates of getting the free tickets
of the premier screening of Transformers 2


left Pizza Hut at 1430 to the badminton court
the ones who came for badminton :
hong, ika, mac, michy, kenny, seahai, novianto
kinda satisfied that i could sweat and release stress
i was kinda still sneezing non-stop... sigh...
and also one of my racket's string broke horizontally
next basketball between hong, ika, MS & kenny
hong, MS & i kinda challenged the 3 little kids
that normally played as usual at court infront of my house


ScOrE :
hong, MS & i vs 3 little kids (11 - 9)


mamak session at FS mamak after basketball
nothing much around the whole week
that is all i can update and review
assignments stress is still on
every one of us were busy on it
good luck to everybody who faces assignments !!!



p/s : i just hope that i could stop sneezing and continue to work on the assignments !!! sigh.....

Torn Apart.....

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERNED :


*** MYSELF
flipping through the memories in KDU
known new friends and new classmates
known new people and new characters
which was intended to have been built
long time ago in my own personalities


*** PEOPLE
knew people who were happy and jovial
knew people who were egotist and stubborn
knew people who were energetic and cheerful
knew people who were emotic and explossive
knew people who were hardworking and nerdy


*** FAITH
the route ahead for everyone is not easy
sometimes it just faithed to be as it is
what can we voice up when God decides
every now and then that we have to carry on
everything that it is supposed to be


*** PUBLIC
sometimes a break is needed for everyone
i kinda just threw my caring part away years ago
but now im back to care about the important ones
im back to care for other people for now and then
what i needed is just to control my soft hearted


*** TEAM WORK
to me team work in new environment is a failure
but no matter how bad the communication is
do trust the group members which were chosen
work hard to catch up on every progression
have the combination of the spirit of a team


*** CARING
i disagree with the statement "caring is sharing"
it all happened because i love keeping my feelings
i just hope that the care would never exist in my life
even just hope that this word would never exist in dictionary
soft hearted of myself appears during this point of the life


*** EMOTION
trying to keep the mind not to have a hint of emotion
just hope the "ones" among us can find the stability
somewhere that we can have the massive explosion on it
dealing with our own stamina of emotion is tough
just get through those feelings and never keep it in heart

does anything arouse in your mind, when you see the sunset image above ? as far for me, when sunset appears in my mind, i just hope that i can finish all my assignments as soon as possible... this is something that i cannot expect how as i can finish all of it... something that i have used to it long time ago, just hoping the lecturers will not come out with the questions in the final part of the semesters... but in the end, it has been a nightmare that all assignments' due date came into a crash...


the whole college environment was kinda quiet... most degree students were having their break as just for few weeks, some were just after their exams, some... i kinda hardly describe the whole environment... it recently most of the seniors were working hard on their DPRJ... anyway, just hope they can finish on time and all the best to every one of them...

omg !!! after the whole VB.NET assignment, im really kinda hanging around recently... kinda leaving aside my assignments even how pathetic and how in a rush that i have to complete it... the questions were also hardly for me to describe... i cannot say that it is hard, and i cannot even say it is easy... the questions just needed understanding... anyway, i have to say it is just into the assignment busy status month.... everybody will be busy from now and then... good luck to all my mates !!!

Solitude.....

FAMILY
the issues of give and take
the cries of arguments and quarrels
the compromising of each members
when can i have the excuse to stay away???


FRIENDS
the issues of obsessiveness and care
the incidents of understandings
the resistance of caring each buddy
when can i just care about myself once ???


LOVE
the issues of satisfaction and presence
the deplore of pain and disappointment
the black hole of a person's deprivation
when can i just glide through the "breeze" of life???


STUDIES
the issues of grades and low marks
the truth of a finish line
the emotionally pain of scoring subjects
when can i have the time to catch up???

life sometimes is just so happening..... as life goes on the difficulties of mustering on my emotions and physical strength just kinda pulled me away tremendously from my slumber every night..... the song "When You're Gone" by Avril Lavigne thwarted by one of the Hitz.FM DJ which indeed utterly affected my feelings and thoughts every minute..... the incidents that happened around me recently were just to be compared to the truculent, rough sea..... what can i comment about it ???


as the thorough discussion among family members carries on..... i just realized that nobody suppose to be blamed to start the quarrels..... there is no reason for someone to point fingers over unsatisfactory because the manual of life is within our frivolous palms..... all that happened would just be the probabilities part of life.....


To the elders of my family members,
" love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres. love never fails... "
- Corinthians 13:6 -

i'll just be hoping that the cries of quarrels could step to an end as soon as possible...

Giving Up...

it is easy to bask in joy
not easy to feel the pain
it is to bewilder in mysteries
not easy to probe on me


looked and saw myself
im cared enough to push away
held and asked myself
im acknowledge of the validity




my mind is confused
my heart is true for you
my thoughts are messy
my heart is stuck on you


it is causing me pain
im about to let it go
it is breaking my heart
im about to give up


Giving Up !!!

When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne

i always needed time on my own
i never thought i'd need you there when i cry
and the days feel like years when i'm alone
and the bed where you lie is made up on your side

when you walk away i count the steps that you take
do you see how much i need you right now

when you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too

when you're gone
the words i need to hear to always get me through
the day and make it ok
i miss you

i've never felt this way before
everything that i do reminds me of you
and the clothes you left they lie on the floor
and they smell just like you i love the things that you do

when you walk away i count the steps that you take
do you see how much i need you right now

and when you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too

when you're gone
the words i need to hear to always get me through
the day and make it ok
i miss you

we were made for each other
out here forever
i know we were

and all i ever wanted was for you to know
everything i'd do i'd give my heart and soul
i can hardly breathe i need to feel you here with me

when you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too

and when you're gone
the words i need to hear to always get me through
the day and make it ok
i miss you

Relaxation Ahead...

im not going to predict my weekend ahead
not thinking it would be a enjoyable one
not thinking it would be a relaxed one
it is totally unpredictable.....


friday is always the best day to cool down
not thinking of screwing on assignments
not thinking of doing any revisions
it is totally relaxation.....


it was another relaxed friday
not thinking about the math of CM
not thinking about the report of VB.NET
it is totally mind peace.....




today was a little too relaxed
not thinking of the on going workloads
not thinking of the boring lecture
it is totally freedom.....


afternoon badminton sessiong was canceled
not thinking to apologize for canceling
not planning to have another game ahead
it is totally laziness.....


evening basketball was a sport to enjoy
not thinking of personal problems
not thinking of staying away
it is totally tired.....


NOTE : a special thanks to hong and bro WJ
for the basketball & yamcha session.....

Turning Point of Life

when blood gushing out from my skin
when tears rolling down from my eyes
made me just to move on to bright side
made me just stop thinking about the pain
no matter it was meant to be hurting
no matter it was meant to be depressing
will i let myself be hurt over someone
will i let myself be hurt over something
which sadness were caused in the past
which pain were caused in the past - physically


life can be short as it stated
life can be wonders of happenings
life should be with care and sympathy
life should be with happy and enjoyment
being almost a looser in life like me
being ironic of how pessimist like me
stayed in the imaginary of hurting myself
stayed in the imaginary of ending myself
not to realized how tough it will hit me
not to realize how hard it is in mere future - ironic


memories of the childhood days
memories of the past in early days
my childhood days never came to a close
my childhood memories were haunting me
this is the reason of leaving the public
this is the reason of being alone in public
even i do prefer to be leaving everyone
even i do prefer to be alone anytime
always will remain in future
forever will remain always - emotions


imaginary pain craving through my mind
rolling tears sitting behind my eyeballs
the hell of my mid is like no one else
the hell of my mid is not particularly horrid
the life to experience all the misery
the life to experience malfunction mental
would it be a point of passion for anything
would it be a point of living for anything
i believe in faith and miracle of life
i believe the turning point of life - satisfaction


memories that crossed by me
experience that shared by me
people will just learn step by step
people will not be satisfy with life
keeping up to have self-trust
keeping up to be strong !!!


****************************************************


something that i have just realized recently
no matter how close a friendship is
there is a boundary or circumstances
that made a person's helping hand to be failure
just trying my best of what i can do
and also helped out my friends in all ways


at last im done with my VB.Net assignment (what a big relieved !!!)
Project Management looking forward for discussions
Techno's business plan on the way for tasks allocation
FOOP looking forward for the questions


Good Night or Good Morning to the day ahead !!!

100 Truths (Tagged by Bro WJ)

001. Real Name : Teh Pik Yee, Agnes
002. Nickname(s) : piky, pikee, piggy, b, bee, bri, teh-tarik, tomato...
003. Age : 20
004. Horoscope : Aquarius
005. Male or Female : Female
006. Elementary : SRJK (C) Damansara
007. Middle School : SMK Damansara Utama, Kuen Cheng Girls' High School
008. High School : Kuen Cheng Girls' High School
009. College School : APIIT/UCTI, KDU College
010. Hair Colour : blackish brown
011. Long or Short : semi-long
012. Loud or Quiet : quiet
013. Sweats or Jeans : jeans
014. Phone or Camera : camera
015. Heath Freak : neither one
016. Drink or Smoke : neither one (drink at only special occasions)
017. Do you have crush on someone : yes
018. Eat or Drink : drink
019. Piercing : left ear one, right ear two
020. Tatoos : no
021. Social or Anti-social : social
022. Righty or Lefty : righty
023. First Piercing : 4 year old
024. First relationship : 2008
025. First Best friend : 1994
026. First award : 2000
027. First Kiss : 2008
028. First Pet : hamsters
029. First Big Vacation : 1994, Sydney
030. First love at first sight : no
031. First big party : 2006
032. First surgery : 1994 (minor surgery)
033. First sport you joined : badminton
034. Orange or Apple juice : apple juice
035. Rock or Rap : rap
036. Country or Screamo : country
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: backstreet boys
038. Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera: christina aguilera
039. Night or Day : night
040. Sun or Moon : moon
041. Tv or Internet : internet
042. Playstation or Xbox : neither one
043. Kiss or Hug : kiss
044. Iguana or Turtle : turtle
045. Spider or bee : spider
046. Fall or Spring : fall
047. Limewire or iTunes : itunes
048. Soccer or Baseball : neither one
049. Eating : nothing
050. Drinking : a cup of fresh milk
051. Excitement level : kinda hard to be excited
052. I'm about to : post 2 post in my blog
053. Listening to : a little too not over you - david archuleta
054. plan for today : would be a boring day of 3 subjects in college
055. waiting for : a phone call
056. energy level : 30% (totally exhausted & lost in life's direction)
057. thinking of someone : yes
058. want kids : after marriage
059. want to get married : yes... when the time suites for it
060. when : after i have a good career
061. How many kids do you want : didn't ever think of it
062. Any name in your mind : no
063. what do you want to be when you little : designer
064.Careers in mind : basically majoring in IT field, if failed to i'll switch to my language career
065. Mellow future or wild : mellow future
066. Something you will never try : having a major car accident
067. When do you want to die : if it's time for God to bring me along
068. Lips or Eyes : eyes
069. Romantic or Funny: romantic
070. Shorter or Taller : taller
071. Protective or Caring : caring
072. Romantic or Spontaneous : spontaneous
073. Nice stomach or Nice arm : nice stomach
074. Sensitive or Loud : loud
075. Hooked-up or Relationship : relationship
076. Trouble-maker or Hesitant : neither both of it
077. Muscular or Normal : normal
078. Kissed a stranger: no
079. Broken a bone : no
080. Lost glasses or contact : no
081. Ran away from home : once
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense: yes... held a knife
083. Killed somebody : no
084. Broken someone's heart : yes
085. Had your heart broken : yes
086. Been arrested : no
087. Cried when someone died : no (cold hearted)
088. Liked a friend more than a friend : yes
089. Youself : always believe in myself
090. Miracle : sometimes
091. Love at first sight : no
092. Heaven : yes
093. Santa Claus : don't think it ever exist
094. Tooth Fairy : no
095. Kiss in first date : yes
096. Angels : depends
097. Is there one person that you want to be with right now : yes
098. Happy with where you're in life now : definitely no...
099. Do you believe in god: yes
100. Post as 100th truths and tag 6 people
Tag :
1. Kylie
2. Tzyy
3. Tomoki
4. Vivian
5. Ting
6. Colour Wolf

Mid-Term Break ???

i questioned myself about
what type of mid-term break
had i enjoyed for the time being
my answer to the question is
i had an totally not enjoyable one
all i spent was on my
particular VB.NET assignment



~ 03062009, Wednesday ~
kinda exhausted recently
never had a good slumber
kinda had the chance to wake up at
0900 hours before badminton session
maybe my mind was still in dream
got a shot of the shuttle on my face
from kenny in the second game
the ones who came for badminton were
shusiong, shiangchyn, hong, christine,
seahai, novianto & another 2 friends of his


Weekly Badminton Results :
kenny-siong vs seahai-i (15-21)
kenny-siong vs christine-i (21-18)
chyn-siong vs christine-i (21-11)
kenny-siong vs christine-chyn (15-21)


after lunch at home christine and i
headed to Section 14's Digital Mall
christine brought her laptop
to adjust her laptop's bluetooth settings
then as usual we went for a drink
at Uptown Damansara's Old Town Cafe



~ 04052009, Thursday ~
the journey to Selayang Hospital
started at 0730 hours from home
went to the blood test department
started to draw off my blood at 0940 hours
could you imagine the nurse had to poke
twice at my left arm & once at my right arm


reached the x-ray department at 1030 hours
to undergo the ultra sound for final report
and also the decision of the major surgery
headed to the HPB department at 1115 hours
waited for the report to be sent online from
the x-ray to the HPB department

*** HPB = Hepato Pancreato Biliary ***

get to consult back the same doctor at 1220 hours
seriously i was kinda starving cos i have to fast
since morning for the blood test and the ultra sound
anyway, it was a relieved that the report is POSITIVE
meaning that im examined to have "NO STONES"
and "NOT NECESSARY" to undergo major surgery
praise all glory to God !!!


now is 0445 hours of 05/06/2009, Friday
i cannot imagined that i can finish the VB.NET
interface designs and almost 90% of syntax
without any slumber in 2 days (Wed & Thurs)
in 3 hours time i will be heading to college
to work on the syntax again and i really
hope that Ms Foong Li will give a helping hand on
retrieving the error at the login form of the application


Ciaoz... Oozed to sleep for 2 hours...

***********************************************************************


~ 05062009, Today ~
was at first handling everything in Lab E
but the marketing manager of one stop center
had this 3 days event using Lab E
shifted to Lab D and came seahai struggling
with his java assignment for 2 hours
before time to out for lunch at you yee
with okon and seahai to have a nice break


shusiong came at 1400 hours
shiangchyn came at 1435 hours
mac came at 1500 hours
all we can do was to solve the errors
unfortunately there was this noisy one group of
H&T diploma students taking as if the whole lab E
has no other users that they could laugh and talk aloud
shusiong, alexlew, seahai and i
was kinda pissed off but we're kinda laughing non-stop
because of their stupid discussion of those celebrities


Look at what Alex Lew wrote on his facebook status :


this is a "special" way to comment on what
the group of students had crap about the Taiwanese Celebrities
it was totally damn sickening
thank God they left at 1530 hours
to silent down the whole lab for other lab users


at 1830 hours after solving my VB.NET syntax
of my login form of the assignment
Ms Pineapple was introduced
a new facebook game - Bejeweled by mac & shiangchyn
in the end this was my first time to experience
a "mature" lecturer challenging a student for high score
Ms Pineapple used shiangchyn's account to challenge mac
until she could score higher than mac..... LOL !!!


im totally exhausted once i reached home
i had no energy to join hong & valerie
for basketball in the past evening
i just hope i could finish the whole application tonight
and the others could work on the report tomorrow


thanks okon & ms foong li
for the guidance and help in my whole syntax !!!
thanks shusiong, shiangchyn & mac
for coming to college tomorrow
we shall finish everything in my house tomorrow !!!


posted @ 04:45am, 05062009 (Friday)
edit @ 23:07pm, 05062009 (Friday)

Rapid Updates.....

~ 30052009, Saturday ~
accompanied my bro for dota
at tbun till early morning
reached back PJ's home
almost at about 0630 hours
fall onto my bed (zzZZ) and
slept till before lunch time


my parents went shopping without me
home alone again
rang up for delivery from
uptown's italian pizzania
stayed at home the whole day
surfing around the net
was kinda bored so
tried out twitter & plurk
put the plurk widget
at my blog's sidebar


accompanied parents for dinner
but i was totally not hungry
before this they left me for
the "security launching gathering"
which was held at the basketball court
right in front of my house


then accompanied hongie
who drank only milo + nestum
the whole evening to have his
breakfast, lunch or dinner ???
i cannot figure out which it was



~ 31052009, Sunday ~
it is already the last day of may
and i cannot imagined it was
my first time to wake up at 1300 hours
went for "brunch" aka lunch
with parents at uptown's paparich
the food and drinks there were
expensive and not tasty
would not be recommended
to anyone to dine in there


hongie just suddenly messaged
me on msn messenger
asking for a basketball game
just to release tensions
i played till 18:30 hours
went back to get ready
to head to my second aunt's house
at mutiara damansara for my cousin sister's
steamboat dinner for her birthday
then we had baskin robbin
which replaced as her birthday cake
actual birthday supposed to be
on the June 5th

look at my cousin's dog
staring at my cousin sister
when she's scooping out the ice cream
for everybody


at almost midnight get a nudge
by shaunie on msn messenger
he wanted to share his "happiness"
congratulations, shuanie !!!
don't be upset on your own results
you had already do your very best
for the national championship
congratulations for 3rd place in the
pokemon national championships


recently im just so into watching
the drama series "ghost season 2"
so i decided to start a new group
on facebook and also friendster
all my friends out there
feel free to join these 3 groups


facebook : "8tv - Ghost"
http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=86929883498


facebook : "8tv - Ghost Season 2"
http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=110059505551


friendster : "Ghost Season 2"
http://www.friendster.com/group/tabmain.php?gid=2987435



~ 01062009, Monday (1st day of midterm break) ~
it started to be mid-term break
on the firt day of june
still cannot stay away
from workloads and assignments
back to college again in
the morning for my vb.net


had lunch session with mr alex, okon, s.hai and c.yin
then back to lab e continue
with s.siong and also the
help from s.hai and a.ngan
again till the late evening till 18:00 hours
caught in a short jam after
passing through the underpass
immediately had dinner upon reaching home


hongie rang me up urgently
at about 18:25 hours
wanted me to help him drive back
one of his car from LCCT
again it was my 2nd time's experience
to drive an avanza
LCCT was kinda quiet to be compared
to the normal daily on goings
is it because it wasn't a peak time
or is it because of H1N1 ???
hongie, thanks for your offer
to go for baskin robbin
but im really exhausted after hung out
in the lab the whole long hours
have one question for you
what if it was other people who helped you
would you be able to find your way back
to PJ ??? ** grins **


anyway, im glad that at last
i had this chance to update my blog
im stress and kinda lazy recently
to write a specific new post every day
i shall just leave my blog updates
as it is for the moment being
im gonna have a really good rest tonight
im already "overloading"


thanks to SeaHai, AlexNgan
and of course my team member - ShuSiong
we will finished up the assignment together
tomorrow !!!