Motivation.....

this is the 2nd week of December
have been already in Newcastle for
almost two and a half months and
slowly as days passes by i felt
that life is so surprisingly filled
with "sour, sweet, bitter and spicy"



it has been a chance that i have been
longing and will hope that i could
achieve whatever i am suppose to
complete here in Newcastle but i do not
need any complicated dramas just a
simple life that fill with happiness



it is now 6:40 in the morning
i have been sleeping at awkward
timing and wake up early in the
morning trying to chill myself
from whatever feelings and
"dramas" that i had to overcome


1. to complete and handing up OOMAD
assignment is a disappointment... im
not gonna put the blame on other people,
but im learning from mistakes of what i
did and what other people did...


2. to grow a "fruit" from a "seed" towards
the PMPD assignment is so tough... i have
to learn to work harder towards a better
achievement for the report writing...



at times there is just nobody for
me to talk to and nobody suitable
to just allow me to release my
words from my heart and soul
in the end what i really crave for
is just a "delete" button that allows
me to "delete" all the bad moments
that filled with anger and sadness



i guess these were the times that
allows me to think twice before i
step into another day continue to make
another mistake or make another
decision that i will regret again



whatever i can conclude for myself
is just that im growing inside my
mentality day by day, trying to solve
problems, analyze and think for my
future before i make any decision or
even towards any planning for future



at times future seems to be clearly
pictured in my mind when conversations
were on going and decisions were made
but at times future seems to be opaque
when situation and people around might
changes your mind towards the timing
of every bits and every moments



what i can see now is just a simple
degree course is motivating
and inspiriting me to move forward
and plan properly for my future that
it does not matter whether is career
or even relationship and friendship
problem but i will just seriously urge
to get a future life for myself



" what comes around, goes around..... "

Romans 15:4

For whatsoever things were written aforetime were
written for our learning, that we through patience
and comfort of the scriptures might have hope