Why Do I Feel So Sad - Alicia Keys

friends we've been for so long
now true colours are showing
makes me wanna cry oh yes it does
cuz i had to say goodbye


by now i should know
that in time things would change
so it shouldn't be so bad
so why do i feel so bad


how can i adjust
to the wat that things are going
it's killing me slowly
oh i just want it to be how it used to be


cuz i wish that i could stay
but in time things must change
so it shouldn't be so bad
so why do i feel so sad


you cannot hide the way you feel inside i realize
your actions speak much louder than words
so tell me why oh


by now i should know that
that in time things would change
so it shouldn't be it shouldn't be so bad
so why do i feel so sad


by now i should know
that in time things must change
so it shouldn't be so bad
so why do i feel so sad


by now i should know
that in time things must grow
and i had to leave you behind
so why do i feel so sad
if it couldn't be that bad
tell me why


by now i should know
that in time things would change
so it shouldn't be so bad
so why do i feel so sad

Tears Without Dissapointment.....

it should be a brilliant day today
my mood started to be down since morning
maybe because i had the six sense
that final results will be published today


today's badminton session was really quiet
although there was a badminton class
going on at one particular court
the whole session is really quiet


my feelings couldn't be described
with any suitable vocabulary words
"snoopy with tears"
is how and what i feel now
that is the only image that could describe my feelings


4 subjects of my final results im totally satisfy
because i knew how much i've worked hard
but what about my CGPA
it will change a lot


EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED !!!
next semester will be a harder level to work on
im going to change my revision methods
my new year resolution has just covered
just about 0.03% in this just passed semester
i've to fulfill my resolutions within this year


the new semester's time table is published
im really sick of it
why i have to face it in this coming semester
just accept it with an open heart


To All MY UCFF0803 FRIENDS,
GOOD LUCK & ALL THE BEST
IN THE FINAL PAPER !!!

Bowling @ U-Bowl aka Watchman

today's plan of karaoke changed and

turned out to be a bowling event

nothing much to say about it
but really wana apologize for being late
for 40 minutes..... =(


let the photos below
describe everything


1st GAME OF THE DAY
as you can see
yijia, littlebrother WaiJin (215) & I
v.s.
keyin, jolene & littlebrother Shaun (164)
my "grumpy" stomach making up not to be not my day for bowling....
sigh..... sad..... only 50 points for the day.....


2nd GAME OF THE DAY"please... please.... please.... let the ball hit the pins...."
kekeke.... yijia trying to score her best score.....

"Oh No... Ish... Why??? where did my ball went to???"
littlebrother WaiJin falling onto the pathway.....

224 v.s. 258
my team was kinda far behind
because i was totally not feeling well.....
my littlebrother WaiJin hurt his finger between 2 bowling balls.....
littlebrother WaiJin, hope your finger is not hurting....
enjoy dipping into ice water..... Get Well soon !!!


After 2 games
littlebrother Shaun was starving since morning without breakfast....
so ended up
this is what we had for lunch.....

Pizza Hut - we ordered Meal 6 enough for the 5 of us
why only 5 because ???
yijia waiting for her darling CJ7 for lunch ^_^

The Hungry One, littlebrother Shaun
v.s.
The Enjoyable One, JouLing

The "Paiseh" One, littlebrother WaiJin

The Most Enjoyable One, keyin (cheeyin)

The Hungry One --->>> The Busy One
Lets guess who is on the phone
a gal or a boy???
hahaha..... it's kolarbear aka ShuSiong on the phone


before the lunch ended
ShuSiong and ShiangChyn
came to meet us up at Pizza Hut


Before they head into the cinema at 3pm
another last bowling sessionLittleBrother WaiJin and I (151) v.s. Shaun and JouLing (171)
my bowling soul is back in this last game....
but littlebrother WaiJin's finger seems to be getting worse..... =(
littlebrother Shaun's skill is extremely improving..... =)

WJ, Shaun, CY, SS & SC made the decision to go watch "Watchman"
hahaha..... my dear friends, although I watch this movie twice
but my feedback to this movie is totally extremely BORING !!!

Rating for the movie :
1/10

p/s :
Chris, 您无法出席，不要怪自己。
帮助朋友是件好事。
有机会，我们会再一次约出来一起高兴地玩乐！！
(Chris, it's ok if you cannot make it. Don't blame yourself. Giving friends a helping hand is the best choice. If there's a change, we'll find another day to have fun together)

CJ，谢谢你来这一趟。
也许我想向你说声“对不起”
因为我约了一班会让你也许觉得尴尬的朋友
希望有机会，我们也会再一次一起出去！！
(CJ, thanks for coming too. In the end, I still wana say "sorry" because I've invited a group of friends that you'll feel kinda awkward. It's ok, if there's a chance we'll hang out again together)

" 60 Earth Hour "

WWF Malaysia and its partners
launched in Malaysia for the very first time.


Please support this movement


Come together to fight global warming
Turn off your lights for one hour
8:30pm Saturday 28th March 2009


For more details, log onto :
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or
http://earthhour.org.my/


Counting Down : 4 DAYS

1 Day Busy Routine.....

woke up kinda early this morning
it's been a long time i've not wake up
at this time of the day - 6am
got ready for badminton session with my cousins
at Bukit Utama Club at 9am
today was kinda special because my two elder cousin sister
came to join the badminton session


first round (single)
first aunt vs I (score : 17 - 21)
second round (single)
cousin brother vs I (score : 21 - 19)
third round (double)
second aunt & I vs cousin sister & cousin brother (score : 21 - 14)
forth round (double)
cousin sister & I vs second aunt & cousin brother (score : 21 -15)


went back home at 10:30am
fetched my dad to KL Sentral
to catch the LCCT bus to the airport
he's leaving to Bangkok at 1:05pm


back from KL Sentral headed to the usual mamak shop
for Roti Sardin & Teh Ais
drove back to Bukit Utama Club
waiting for my cousins to enjoy their swim
and also my aunts who went for gym


after the shower back home
headed to my second aunt's house at about 3pm
in order to help my cousin sister to design her
School Magazine's front page of each topic using Adobe Photoshop




went back home to bring my mom
for dinner at about 6:30pm
then headed to The Curve's Kenny Rogers
to join my cousins for dinner
and now I'm sitting here to enjoy writing my this daily post


Adioz !!!

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REDBOX

back to college at 9am

wanted to try my locker's key
then straight went to Ika's house
helped her to download
antivirus, ccleaner, msn plus and other usable stuff


at about 11am
both of us walked down the college path road
wanted to catch a taxi to The Curve
unfortunately my "green tortoise"
was being sent to the "hospital"
to repair the brake system


managed to stop a taxi
but saw mingsheng's car heading to college
in the end got a lift from him to The Curve
Thanks, mingsheng !!!




the karaoke was separated into 2 rooms
6 in a room and 7 in the other one
Apple, Jade, PheiYee, Ika and I
was actually in room 13
ended up WaiJin, Mac & Kelvin
randomly joined singing at both rooms
want to know more of who joined the karaoke


LOG ONTO -->
http://jin-fall4u-and-onlyyou.blogspot.com/2009/03/20th-mar.html

Days After the Final Exams...

Beware : Long post ahead !!!


2 days ago, Tuesday
17 March 2009
The clock strucked 3pm
final exam has ended at that particular moment !!!!


~ MONDAY ~
DB paper was fine but unfortunately i didn't really study the syntax for SQL statement. so what i did was writing the answers of through what i've learned and remember from RDBMS....
OOSAD paper was not as hard as what Ms Jessie had said.... the whole paper is just tricky
it was a night that i started sleeping at 11pm and woke up at 3am to study for RDBMS & DCN....



~ TUESDAY ~
in the morning i had my RDBMS paper.... i was kinda frightened by a junior who sat at the left hand side of me.... just couldn't imagine that she could just look around during the exam and not concentrating on her HCIS paper.....
next the most stress and scariest paper which is DCN.... i described the paper as "stress & scariest", it's because me myself i don't have good memory to memorize the theories in it. so what i can do is to remember the theories through understanding and not memorizing....


waijin invited michy and I to join the gang for movie at one u
after the DCN paper
it was too late for us to go for a movie
but in the end
going for a "curry puff enjoyable time"
with banchoon, cheewei & michy
at Uptown's "Oh Papa"
this is the first enjoyable time
that i have after the final papers



~ WEDNESDAY ~
back to college in the morning to help banchoon
to sort up the keys of the 3rd floor lockers
had fun doing the labeling with mounting board
had lunch with yijia, elaine, louis and cheewei at choy kee


the most big laughter was
michy went to elaine's house
and just shouted their names
as her hand phone was out of credit
so that's the only way she could get the both of them
michy, didn't i told you that we were going to Choy Kee for lunch ????


2pm, as usual our badminton session
today we have new comers
JouLing, Michelle, Louis & one state player
which is known as my junior and also louis's friend
as usual the yam cha session at the "old place"
the mamak stall
it's really true that there will be fun
if Shaun was there to play
Little brother, see so many people missed you.... kekeke....



~ TODAY (THURSDAY) ~
went back to college again
to help banchoon with the Orientation Goodie bags
with CheeWei & SeaHai
we took about an hour plus to do 300 goodie bags
i think i'll go bored sitting at home in this early morning


2pm, badminton session again
at Taman Megah's badminton court
since i had nothing better to do at home
so i just joined
sigh.... there was like only 5 of us
Carissa, SeaHai, BanChoon, CheeWei and I


Eugene & Christ came to my house
asking me for the favour to print their
diploma project's final report



that's all for the moments that i had for the days after the finals
** tired **


ADIOZ !!!!

Stuck @ 1U ???

went to Ika's house
this morning after breakfast
it was my first time
heading back to college's library
for group study on SATURDAY
pity Ika woke up at 8am
we were actually told to meet up at 9am
in the college's library


every new agenda there will be a first time
so ended up we started at about 11 something
by the way it wasn't call a group study
or even to be called a discussion group study
as all of us were studying our own stuff


went out from the college at 2:30pm
to do some printing of the notes
ended up buying some "eating" stuff
from 7 eleven and brought back into the library
that's how i spent my whole day




3 hours ago i had my dinner
at my eldest aunt's house
since she was alone today
because my third aunt whole family
was away from town to Langkawi
so i accompanied her to 1U's Parkson
to purchase her Estee Lauder cosmetic
in order to take a break
after a long day of studies
in the college's library


unfortunately
after a hour of shopping
and also paid for the parking ticket
got stuck at the parking area
as my aunt's car was unable
to start without a unfunctioned battery


before the foreman arrived
i managed to start back the car
after refilling the battery water
but then my aunt couldn't believe that
i could do it
while the foremen were already
on their way


at least to be lucky
i had my father's familiar foreman's number
and i managed to get them
to help my aunt to change another new battery
so total up i spent about an hour plus


now im back home to continue
for my final's revision


ADIOZ

Thanks for The Day !!!

Another badminton session yesterday
but yesterday was a unique day


it was totally unique
because i did not have any classes yesterday
as it is the study week
no more classes for DCN and RDBMS


was working out with the answers
for the given tips of RDBMS fundamentals
in lab I yesterday morning
as Ms Foong Li changed her class to lab D
in the end shifted back to lab D
as Mr Julian has classes at 10am
Approached to find Ms Hafizah in the staffroom
at about 10:45am for explanation of
the left outer join, right outer join & full join


decided to just take the form
and proceed to Ms May
for the changing subject of TE2 to OS
unfortunately she was not in the staffroom


headed to LTA and saw a big crowd of
classmates standing outside
found out that there was no DB class
in the proceed to have our Q&A session
for the group assignment presentation session


went back home at about 1:30pm
while alex lew and chee wei
followed behind my car to my house
headed to the badminton court
with the two cars after my lunch at home
and straight away fetched chee yin and wai jin


started with a double game
Chee Yin and Eugene with Alex and I
it should be a unique badminton session yesterday
because Alex, SeaHai, MingSheng, CheeWei and CheeYin
came to play with us for the first time


Thanks for coming !!!





i guess this is my last post before
i proceed to the finals mood to study
stay tuned to my blog for new post
maybe after the finals (16/03 - 17/03)


SCORE "A" FOR ALL SUBJECTS
GOOD LUCK EVERYBODY !!!

Sigh.... Stress Relieve....

im always claiming myself that im stressed up
in fact i guess this is totally untrue
these stress consider to be one part of my life
this is the choice of my living !!!


at last im free from assignments
im always optimistic in "this particular" assignment
handed it up today at 3:12pm
in this semester "this particular subject"
is special to me how much i paid the effort and revisions !!!


the time left till final exams
it's not even more than a week
im totally so lazy
everyday i seemed to be wasting time
working on tutorials and assignments
are just at the eleventh hour !!!


recently i can't find a better way to
reduce my stress and pressure
previously i will loose my stress through
writing my feelings here in this blog
through reading, through bowling


now all these couldn't be found in me anymore
blog is already not my choice to relieve stress
im already more to hanging out for movies
more to hanging out for sports
but yesterday somebody just reminded me
that i couldn't give up reading
as my particular hobby


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3 days of break
i did nothing at home
all my plans were ruined
just because of "somebody"
just changed all the plans suddenly
im kinda pissed off with it


it makes me to feel that
im totally a useless person being a couch potato
or even a useless person staying at home doing nothing
anyway, just forget about it
life has to be continued


i really couldn't imagine that today
was my first time working an assignment
right on the day that i've to hand in
it took me to start from about 10:10am till 2:30pm
just to work on one 5 questions assignment


the minute i handed in the assignment
i kinda wana give up and tell Chris aka HeXuan
that i'll just head back home and have a good sleep
but in the end somebody has promised to fetch my cousin brother
back from his tuition
so i just went with Chris to the Taman Mega Futsal Centre
to hang around and see those guys play futsal


in the end at 4pm
everybody headed to one of the basketball court near SMK Taman Sea
i guess it should consider to be another basketball game today
but im kinda blur and totally a noob today
with my own friends basketball is still not my game yet... sigh...




im recently just suspecting my feelings towards "you"
maybe it's just a miracle of my life
but i just cannot accept the fact
different routes, different interest
maybe i've just kinda suddenly fall into the cupid
that i didn't realised in just few months ago
just let time give me all the answers about it


recently not much to update
off and on
just stay tuned when there's a new post


ADIOZ !!!

Badminton vs Basketball - GUYS, TQ SO MUCH !!!

It's been a long time I've not played badminton. It's time for me to refresh. Had a badminton session with Ika, Eugene, WaiJin, Shaun & HeXuan at TTDI's Community Hall. Was kinda an hour late for the badminton session as waited HeXuan to come from his house and also joined Michelle, Ika, CJ, Sharon, Kalvin, Eddie, Vincent, TzaYong, HeXuan & WaiJin for lunch at Atria's KFC.


The first game was "guys" game, 4 guys matched in a game. Second game, Shaun paired with Ika and WaiJin paired with me. Last game Eugene paired with Ika and HeXuan paired with me ended up loosers have to treat for a cup of drink. (so, we were the loosers)

Thanks guys for coming !!!

After the badminton game, was actually planing to go for a drink. In the end, I received a sudden phone call, mom said she wanted to use the car. I was so pissed off with this incident that I had to sent Ika back immediately, left Eugene to fetched by her sister from One Utama and also bothered WaiJin and Shaun waited for a few minutes at my house.




After a heavy rain and the badminton session, basketball session started at about 5:20pm with WeiLun, ShuSiong, MingSheng, ChewFei, Shaun, WaiJin & Jonathan. Anyway, honestly to say I was kinda paiseh to join the whole group. It's also been a long time I've not touch basketball. Anway, basketball session was not too bad, but I really enjoyed watching you guys play more than I'm the one playing.

Thanks WaiJin & Shaun for the invite for basketball game !!!


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my mind was seriously kinda bothered
by unhappiness recently
honestly, i can't concentrate in all games today
maybe i can't deny that badminton game
was for me to "throw" out the unhappiness
why can't i just stay away from that unhappiness?


It's great that I could pick up any sports again
in these busy days....
while the gang of friends playing the basketball game
i really hope that life could be just like last time
few years back
the life that is supposed to be mine
It really refreshed my memories of the days
that my foster brother play with his friends
in a basketball game... and i was the one having fun too


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Anyway, wana leave a few words to some people :

Hey "you", don't you know how bad am I feeling now ?
I'm really pissed off, I really hate "you" !!!

Eugene, I'm really sorry that I couldn't fetch you back today =(

Shaun, you didn't managed to smash me today =P
but seriously your badminton skills is really GREAT !!!

WaiJin, sorry for bothering you to fetch me from my house
for the basketball game...
I'm really sorry but thank you very much !!!

ShuSiong, never know that an athlete like you
can have skills in basketball too... hahaha....

ChiewFei, your basketball skills is just as good as my foster brother !!! ** Salute **

God Bless....

My Dear Brother :

I just hope that at this second, you could be conscious and sit in front of a laptop to read my post.
Do you know how worry i was when i received the call. Although i knew it wasn't your fault and it was just the drunk lorry driver who caused the accident, i just hope that you should be safe and sound.


Do you know it was your big fault to call your best buddy over the bridge to another country to be caught in an accident too? It's really a wrong decision. You really broke my heart for "this person" this time. But then I really need to thank you for this accident to make me to be sure of my relationship. I've been wondering why God is so unfair to those good deed people. Why? Obstacles were always there but why chosen the good people ?


Do you know how bad i feel, when i tripped over a person's leg when i was in the movie? It really made me feel bad to just scare people and walked out of the cinema in the middle of the show. If there is a chance that this post was able to be read by the couple, I really sincerely wana apologize even it's too late. SORRY !!!


I really hope you're safe... I really hope that you're always be the same brother that i have since im young... I really hope that after this two big accidents, you will not make me worry about you anymore... And also don't lead "that person" to heart my heart...

MAY GOD BLESS "YOU" TO BE SURVIVED FROM THE ACCIDENT !!!

Love,
your sis.

Few words to few important people :

Ahnaf & Yamin, thanks for joining us with the show...

Ika, thanks for coming...

Michelle, today it's my turn to be sad again...
i actually had the bad sense of something has happened
when we're on the way to the cinema

Sharon, thanks for the invite to the karaoke...

WaiJin, thanks for the lift to 1U
I will pay you back the movie ticket tomorrow

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Laziness.....

" Most people are stronger than they know.
They just forget to believe in it sometimes. "
~ Keith ~

" Be not afraid of life
Believe that life is worth living
and your belief will help create the fact "
~ Henry James ~


whenever im so lazy
and not in the mood to do anything
this quote will encourage me
to move forward


another week to begin
gosh... im getting more lazy
kinda lazy to touch anything
that has to be done and hand up
my last assignment
RDBMS
will due soon on next tuesday


im still having fun
and also relaxing
when only will i start to have
the mood to study for my finals


Good Luck
to those who are working on
WAD's assignments


movie outing will be
on Thursday afternoon
will have a badminton game session
on Friday evening