Left or Right @ Right or Left

Beware, long post ahead!!!

Boom!!! **I’m so sorry to start my post with this mind-blowing sound** It is over!!! January is over!!! I cannot believe that January 2008 ended just like an explosion scene… This is so call a blistering “incident” astonishing human’s feelings… Haiz… Aucoritates Aristotelis says, “Time is the measure of movement”… I now have to believe that time really passes instantaneously… Time will never slow down a pace to wait for you…

Today **1st Feb**, I received my salary in cash… Although "good" days have started 4 days ago, I am now going through every whereabouts of my life… Everything seems so meaningless, I cannot accept the fact that I am still working in that particular “small office” at the factory… I have been telling myself 31st Jan will be my last day of work… But now, why am I still in there??? What is wrong with me??? This week onwards, I choose to continue working half day in that “small office”… I will be “learning” in an IT firm in the other half of the day… Learning = Working while Learning in that IT firm…

In the end, I gave myself a conclusion :

1 ) In that “small office” situated at the 2nd floor of the factory
**** Negative Conclusions ****
- Stress - Wasting time - I realized that I am a person who is not suitable to work in the office - I have learned to prevent myself from Ms. Heng & Mrs. Wong **boss’ wife** from talking bad about others, showing their “proud” ability & rudeness – I have learned to prevent myself of stepping into any side of these 2 people – I have been thinking now is just only 2 people, what if I am in a big company?? -
**** Positive Conclusions ****
- I get to communicate with Ali **factory manager** in order to record the stock list – I get to communicate with Bikas **Stock Packing Leader** in order to record the import & export packing list – I get to meet back 2 of my foster brother’s friend (long time didn’t get in touch) who were now also working as part timer in the factory ** Thank you very much of both of you for accompanying me during the lunch break** -

2) In the IT Firm
**** Negative Conclusions ****
- I have to prevent myself to bother my colleagues while they are busy -
**** Positive Conclusions ****
- I have get to learn the basics of database, oracle, discrete math, networking, mapping, etc. from my colleagues **I guess this is the right place to enjoy while working seriously** - glad to have a group of friendly & helpful colleagues -

Frankly speaking, I don’t have any worries….
But, I have to find a way to learn, to stay away…...from all “things”….
What should I do??? Should I turn left or turn right???

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I just received a phone call from XK… He’s been like calling me every night since 24th Jan (the day that he came back to KL from Osaka)… It’s so sad that I was not in the mood of talking to him tonight... I realized that if the longer I drag all the problems, it will be worsen by me…

How should I give a suitable answer to his 2 important questions???
How should I advise him not to waste his future just like this???
How should I honestly tell him everything???
Again, should I turn left or turn right???