Coming Home.....

" im coming home, im coming home

tell the world im coming home

let the rain wash away

all the pain of yesterday

i know my kingdom awaits and

they've forgiven my mistakes

im coming home, im coming home

tell the world that im coming..... "

- Skylar Grey -

some people have been questioning me

am i heading back home to malaysia or

am i just applying for the suitable

visa and just continue to stay in UK

somehow i will choose not to reply

as i personally hate to have an answer

the days of job hunting without a

proper visa well there was only the

chance to work part time at newcastle

chinatown's take away or restaurants

considered not to be a permanent job

after studying as a international

student who was awarded with a degree

somehow day by day to have receive

good news from Austria and partly

from a place in UK but not newcastle

which really makes me confused and

hardly get to make up my mind of

what will be my next route and steps

i wanted to let God to plan everything

but it turned out that gradually i will

realize that somehow one side seems to

be a waste of time and somehow i should

have learn to make up my mind and stay

firm of my personal decision which had

been banned by parents

* finger crossed *

the only way i can now is to return and

try my best opportunities and chances to

come back to Europe includes England

* finger cross *

Circle of Life.....

people's personality changes, life changes

somehow i had learnt from whatever that

happens that the word "forever" may not

exist in life till the future as somehow

the word "forever" always exist in people

who were in a relationship couple's mind

situations that had happened will just

happened and nobody will be willing to

look back and refresh to what had really

happen as now to be known as history

living to the fullest of not getting hurt

is a difficult process that made humans

to go through happiness or sadness which

somehow it turned out that i have done and

learned from experience that made me to

live more independent and to be stronger

close friends have been cheering me up

and gave me lots of advice while being

myself to cling onto a situation where

i almost just end my footpath on where

it supposed to turned back or remain

somehow for me for the current situation

i learned and known how to cherish every

friendship in my life which somehow i

related it to be God's gift to resolve

loneliness or to learn from individual

of them to have a better future daily life

a situation where when each of us faced

the situation that we want to give up

a person who we each found that it is

not worth to live and appreciate them

this is the situation where it is time

to learn to grow and experience real life

" Love is patient, love is kind

It does not envy, it does not boast,

it is not proud. It does not dishonour

others, it is not self-seeking,

it is not easily angered,

it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but

rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trust,

always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails, but where there

are prophecies, they will be stilled;

where there is knowledge,

it will pass away. "

Birthday Greetings.....

Happy Birthday, Yao Loong !!!

wishing you all the best in your future

good luck in your current dissertation

it has been a great year knowing you,

has been a great hang out friend and

not to forget to mention that all the

happy and sad moments that we shared

and always giggle with the gang =)

I Got You - Leona Lewis.....

A place to crash, I got you
No need to ask, I got you
Just get on the phone, I got you
Come and pick you up if I have to

What's weird about it is
we're right at the end
I'm mad about it
just figured it out in my head
I'm proud to say I got you

Go ahead and say goodbye,
I'll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry,
I'll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better, for worse I got you, I got you

Ain't falling apart or bitter
Let's be bigger than that and remember
The cooling outdoor when you're all alone
Won't survive it, no drama,
no need for a show
Just wanna say I got you

Go ahead and say goodbye,
I'll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry,
I'll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better, for worse I got you

Go ahead and say goodbye,
I'll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry,
I'll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better, for worse, I got you

'Cause this is love and life
And nothing we can both control
And if it don't feel right
You're not losing me by letting me know

Go ahead and say goodbye,
I'll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry,
I'll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better, for worse I got you

Go ahead and say goodbye,
I'll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry,
I'll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better, for worse I got you

A place to crash, I got you
No need to ask, I got you

19th July 2011 - Big Day.....

I'M OFFICIALLY GRADUATED !!!!!



after 19 years of education era
it is time to leap a step forward
to face the reality and experience
for job hunting and life earning



wana thank my parents of coming
all the way to Newcastle, UK to attend
my convocation ceremony and witnessed
the "never thought of this day" moment



well, not to forget the two important friends
on the day who accompanied me and being
the camera man of the day



Kalvin Tan, a long known friend
since college who made my day
of capturing all the moments
from the start of the ceremony
till everything ends for the day

Suh Woan, who witnessed and shared
the moment of happiness by gifting
a bouquet of beautiful sunflowers
which is a sign of a great start
and bright future for me soon





thanks to all my friends who
share this happy moments with
me by congratulating and wishes
given on twitter, facebook and
through text messages from far

xxx

European Accent & Imperial Highlights

I am back with blogging again once in a while
somehow this time I write it in a lazy way
with just destination updates of Europe Trip
that I have went through with my parents

12th June - 25th June 2011 : European Accent
- London
- Armsterdam
- Kohln
- Lucerne
- Rome
- Venice
- Monaco
- Nice
- Floreance
- Paris

To view photos, click on the links below :
Photo Album 1, Photo Album 2, Photo Album 3, Photo Album 4,
Photo Album 5, Photo Album 6, Photo Album 7, Photo Album 8





1st July - 10th July 2011 : Imperial Hilights
- Munich
- Prague
- Budapest
- Vienna
- Salzburg

To view photos, click :
Photo Album 1, Photo Album 2, Photo Album 3, Photo Album 4,
Photo Album 5, Photo Album 6, Photo Album 7

Closer to the End.....

happy memories and good days pass by
rapidly whenever we wanted time to
move much slower than usual to hope
that those memories will be paused
at that momentum forever



somehow it is going to count to be
a 3/4 of an end for a degree's life
where it ended day by day that i had
spent time with different friends
which im really glad to say



********



my china flatmates have left while
to refresh back the memories they
even treated me better than how my
own friends from malaysia treated
me here in this beautiful place



i sincerely wana thank them for being
at my side whenever needed someone to
talk to or even like i needed someone
to accompany for some important stuff
there comes my flat mate to be there



while after the day my flatmates left
for China, and here comes our buddy,
Hanif left back for Malaysia for the
summer where bringing back happiness
and enjoyment that i should be happy
for him to meet back his family



it has been great whenever of hanging
out with Hanif as proudly to tell you
that he is seriously a different muslim
guy that i have ever met all these while
whom somehow alike Dinie, my senior



day by day when someone has left seems
to be a previous moment that God wanted
to give me a chance to know more people
and gain more friends in my whole life
here comes a gang of friends from India,
one from Hong Kong another from Singapore



Aravind, Nibul, Milin, Jaison, Vishnu & AJ
the combination of applied computing and
electrical & electronic engineering students
were really a gift to me for knowing all of
them as they were really friendly, helpful,
enjoying and humourous gang from India



there comes the chances to have dinner at
Sofia twice with Jerry, who is from Hong Kong
a master in design management student where
long time ago since the semester started that
i get to know him and a few more friends,
Pagon and Muhammad at Alwick Castle's trip



somehow i just felt that it is fate that
two days before i left for London i also
managed to make friends with Wang Chen's
sister, a final year student of E&E
Engineering and last but not least a
architecture student from Singapore who
just live the opposite unit in my hostel



********



a very silent moment that recently i have
been trying my best to clean up and pack
up all the stuff into bags in order for
moving out to a new residence in Newcastle
but somehow with the addition of my China
flatmates' "stock" it seems that my room
has became to be a store room



i guess this is my final post that i could
come out with the illusion as tomorrow
midnight i will be leaving for London with
megabus at 1:10am (very early midnight)
and at last to reunion with my parents in
London for a two awaiting tour to out of
the UK and another to Europe that will only
make me to step back at Newcastle in July



new people, new home, another new life.....

Movie Days.....

Dear blog readers, I'm back !!!
I am announcing that it's June !!!



after the days of assignments and my final
paper on the 10th May, it should be considered
that im supposed to be free and easy to enjoy
my summer but somehow i have tried to plan to
make every day to be meaningful that filled
with plans made me to plan my days onwards to
be meaningful and have daily plans



have been kind of frustrated recently with
my future as the situation goes on like that

1) had no confidence for my assignment marks
and also to attend the convocation in July

2) the fact of no confidence to graduate in July
somehow made the fact that I cannot enrol the
masters intake in September

3) could not make up my mind whether it is a
good choice to rent the townhouse and start
the tenancy agreement in July 2011

4) considering the consequences of what if i
have to resubmit my assignments in August as
i have a return ticket back to Malaysia on the
24th July

5) making up my best solution of whether to
apply PSW (post-study work) visa or to just
make it simple to apply for postgraduate visa
when im back to newcastle



where all the circumstances and all the response
were totally on the fence that i cannot make a
move forward to plan for my future while of
course me, myself will hope for a better ending
as not to have bad ending where :

1) i cannot attend convocation in July

2) ended up of not renting the house in Newcastle

3) * touch wood * that my PSW visa has been rejected



i am currently seriously wishing for the best
of everything to carry on smoothly and hope for
the very best for my assignment marks and a
good qualification of a second degree in order
that i can enrol and continue for my masters



*****



let's make a turning point to a more relax
topic and writings about my updates recently
have been trying not to be a spendrift and
also not to hang out too much so that i will
not need to go over spending on my meals



heading to Spot White Snooker Centre used to
be my weekly entertainment in Newcastle as
i really learn a lot from looking at the angle
to cue the ball, learn to control the strength
while hitting the ball, and the most important
is the technique of how to control the cue



back in my homeland, Malaysia, going for a
badminton session or reading used to be part
of my hobby but to pick up reading here in UK
all i can do is to read e-books online or even
find the suitable novels that i hardly can even
get to see it in the own univeristy library



not to forget to mention, i had my first time
heading into Empire Cinema, The Gates to watch
Insidious, Hangover 2 and X-Men : First Class




The first experience into the cinema was with
Mike, Eddie and Hanif watching Insidious which
i personally kinda like th movie as the horror
effect is very sucessful to scare the audience
with the sound effect throughout the movie
grab a ticket and watch it in the cinema there
and then you will understand how successful the
sound effect of the movie to be so freaked out




The second experience into the cinema was with
Mike and Hanif watching the Hangover 2 which was
just yesterday (31st May) before the last day
of May ended where we went to enjoyed this
comedy movie which i personally liked the
character named, Chau in the movie which had
the fun and humour side of him that makes the
audience laugh out loud in the theatre
never missed out this movie in your movie plans




while for today (1st June) following a rather
bigger gang that included Mike, Hanif, Gary and
Patrick to watch X-Men : First Class where at
the first moment i did not know that this movie
was the pre-view of the previous X-Men Saga where
before the professor X turns into X-Men and
Erik turns into the Magnetor in the movie



somehow it turns out to be a great movie that
i really enjoyed as i personally do not enjoy
movie like for example Transformers but this
X-Men : First Class turns out to be interesting
and the storyline was interesting which included
romance, action and adventurous



*****



P/S : Question of the day

Which is a better choice ?

apply PSW (post-study work) visa
in UK or apply in Malaysia ???

Home Cooked Thai Food.....

wana thank Khai Chin and Sue
for inviting me to their place,
Lovaine Flat for Thai Food dinner
which was prepared by 3 lovely
chefs - Ampere, Aey and Nkok



let the pictures do the talking :


the 3 chefs of the day - Nkok, Ampere & Aey
แม่บ้านทหารบก สู้!


Thai Menu of the day
เมนูวันนี้ จัดเต็ม หลังจากสอบเส็ด


Fried Frozen Fishes from Thailand
ปลาสลิดของโปรด


thai green curry
แกงเขียวหวานไก่ ไม่มีมะเขือ ก็เอาแครรอทเนอะ


Lab Rat
ลาบหนู


group photo with the main Thai Chef =)
from left : KC, Sue & Ampere



Photo Credits : Ampere =)

Useless Life.....

what has been going wrong recently
i seriously could not figure out
what has been changing recently
i also cannot sense what is wrong



the days to look forward convocation
to me it felt it is seriously long
and long time more ahead to face
that big ceremony once in the life



had been so depressing recently
but i do not know what im worried
and frustrated about that caused
me not to have good sleep - insomnia



at this moment of the month i should
be enjoying my free time by doing
something beneficial but it seems now
had ruined by all the false hope given



guess i have been spending too much
as the expenses has maximum spent
on the outside food that just ended
day by day when it decreased smoothly



i just hate the situation that currently
im facing and seriously if i had the
chance i would not want to stay in this
place anymore to just "grow mushrooms"






I NEED A BREAK !!!



I DON'T WANT TO LIVE IN THE
FRUSTRATIONS ABOUT MONEY ANYMORE !!!